January 2011
The scariest part of being loved by someone is the...
When your friends are like, “let’s hang out today,” and then none of them answer their phones.
“What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who...”
– Chuck Palahniuk (via sleepingwolf)
When you ask your ex not to fuck your best friend and then he does so you tell him that you regret your relationship and he snaps his phone in half then comes and throws rocks at your window and you go outside to yell at him but he’s crying and you don’t yell at him at all.
And my cousin told me today that he told her he misses me terribly and thinks he could settle down with me....
I tried to quit smoking weed yesterday. Was just gonna take a break. But then today I said fuck it and bought 5 grams. Fail.
However I kind of blame it on the fact that I discovered that my ex and my best friend fucked. I thought they would and that’s why I asked him not to fuck her… Said he wouldn’t, too. So now I’ve been lied to by two very important people in my life...
I have a drunk mother who committed suicide, a junkie brother, a pill popping father. Sometimes I wonder if no matter how hard I try somehow I’ll end up like them or if i really am smart enough not to.
I keep telling you that I am over you but I am lying. I really do love you, and I am definitely not over you.
